Sue's Journey:
The puppies.. Yay. You fixed your computer.. Yay. Where do I begin? So much in this video. It all makes sense. Recently I found myself getting really angry with someone I love. A friend said: that anger could be that you sense there is a lie being told. That got my stirred up. This person wasn't overtly lying.. I could tell. But, there WAS a lie I was feeling. Something didn't fit. I needed to figure it out. I did. The lie was one this person was telling themselves.. A wound. And I sensed that. It made me angry. I see through body language.. That "thing" you talked about. I believe that my narc abusers could see in my body language too. Yes, Narcs are masters at watching and sizing us up. I believe that. And just like, I couldn't hide my body language from them, they couldn't either. They KNEW that my words were saying one thing but my body language was revealing the truth. The truth is: they despised me. I saw it. But my truth is: I despised them too! :))
C. Meagan Michael:
Interesting revelations this morning, Sue. I had not thought of that angle. Everyone has unconscious body language. The feet are great tellers of truth. Someone could be looking at you nodding and "listening" but their feet are pointed toward the door. They want to leave the conversation. I TOTALLY know what you mean about someone lying to themselves and you picking up on it. All the time. It happens all the time. I think it's interesting because we all lie to ourselves in life. For better or worse. As we awaken spiritually our truths become apparent. As we accept our truth and grow we see that we are not so different from our abusers. We also project. We also live in a fantasy.. often the one they create. #SharedPsychosis #FutureFaking etc. Not to mention we lie to ourselves #CognitiveDissonance to make it okay for us to remain with them. We make (I know you know this) excuses for their bad behavior because it would be intolerable to believe that we are purposely staying with someone who, as you said, despises us! In fact I was even thinking this morning, how at the end I started exaggerating my past a bit (with my ex predator... just minor things that made me seem stronger, more capable, more accomplished because I felt SO low...) I was of course desperately seeking validation from my invalidator. Surely a sign that it was time to move on. Can they tell that we despise them? I think at the end when we truly do that would be hard to miss. Though much of the relationship we are not feeling that way. We have lied to ourselves enough and live in the rose colored world that we created in our mind. We are not really in love with them. We are in love with the fantasy that we created. When the veil is lifted and reality sets in... it is mind blowing and shocking to learn that we have in fact duped ourselves for so long. Bottom line is that they believe we hate them all along. They believe (mistakenly) that we are plotting against them, because they can not fathom that we care about them. As we know they hate themselves. We do not "deserve" respect in their eyes because we "love" "admire" and "adore" the person they hate the most... themselves. In conclusion :), I wonder if they see our body language and understand it, if they are merely projecting all along and always assume that we loath them the way they do us, or both. Your thoughts?
Here is the link to the video we are discussing:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fZcQjvnF5Oo&feature=gp-n-y&google_comment_id=z12wznlgynebhpjwa04chpkrsxyncrcwwuw0k
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